My husband and I have had a wonderful marriage for 14 yrs this last June (Diablo 3 Gold). I was working when we met and married, but developed AVN, a bone disease that made me have to have 2 hip and a shoulder replacement. We had some tough times with that, but got stronger. I had to go on disability which pays 1,070.00 a month. My husband makes 95,000 a year, so we managed. We own a townhomw together.
HOWEVER, My parents who gave me a lousy childhood and is at it again the more vulnerable I become from medical stuff, is nitpicking the hell out of me,
critisizing,breaking boundaries and when I won't play, they call my husband at work to critisize me. My husband is intimidated and wont confront them. His lack of balls to confront them has caused a lot of stress in me and I began having anxiety attacks and then my body started to rebel. I developed a bleeding ulcer and a staph/mersa infection going on 4 months that has taken all my finger and toenails, cysts, surgical scars unzipping, etc. All from stress. I know it was hard on my husband to see me go through all this, but I was convinced our love was forever. Every day for 14 years he wrote me a love note before going to work. Every Sunday, flowers and a muffin. I adored him and took care of his family, kids and Grandkids like they were my own.
Imagine my shock when I came back from staying and caring for his Mom for a week (broken hip) and he told me he was leaving to live with his brother. Oh Yeah, while he always claimed love, he seemed to enjoy his 'victimness' being married to and having to care for such a sick wife. I have caught him a few times talking behind my back, saying some horrible things that really hurt. I confronted him only once on it. He apologised profusely and said he was just 'fitting in with the guys' and he didn't mean it. Whatever. It hurt.
Currently, I am all alone. I had to do a no contact rule on my family, so I have no help from them. Period. I was preparing for a VERY EXTENSIVE, 2 day spinal surgery for scoliosis to insert rods in my back. My left leg is numb all the time, and sometimes, I get up and can't feel my leg at all. I fall and am worried for my hips.
My husband said he will keep me on insurance to get the surgery, so I have to get moving on this (Diablo 3 PowerLeveling), but currently, I'm too broken and infected to live through it.
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